I have been spending a whole lot of time looking inward; you know, really getting to know myself. Last year was such a hard year. It almost felt like every new week came with a new life lesson. I left a partner who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with - but who wasn't right or healthy for me. I let people walk out of my life who didn't have my best interests at heart. I didn't put a whole lot of energy into making new friends, because so much of my effort was spent looking at the people in my life and deciding if they were helping or hurting me. Unfortunantly, most weren't helping.
But this year, this year I think I'm finding myself back on track. I've been working so hard and it's nice to finally see the rewards. It's nice to be sure of the people who are in my life. It's even nicer to share my life and my living space with a person who is always rooting for me and always searching for ways to make my life easier. No, I don't need a man in my life to feel complete. But I can't express how greatful I am that I do have that support system. I'm thankful that he hasn't judged me for my past and that he hasn't taken advantage of me when I've been extremely vulnerable.
Last week, I shared this status: "Today was such a stressful day, until I sat back and thought about where I was at this time last year. To think that I was so afraid to leave a bad situation and take on so many life changes - I wish I could go back in time and tell myself that everything gets so much better. Things in my life right now are more than ok, and the lessons I've learned and people I've met have been worth every single struggle. The best part is that I don't have to do it all alone anymore. I love who I am and what my life has become, even on the most stressful of days!"
I've been carrying that feeling of gratitude with me for the past few days. I don't usually put a lot of of things like this on my blog, just because it's so deeply personal and I have been so much more private lately. But I feel like sometimes it's important to share your victories. It's important to feel greatful for the moments that life gives us, especially when there is always so much negativity that surrounds us every day. I hope that if you are struggling right now, you know that things do get better if you put in the work. I feel like life will always be difficult and there will always be challenges and things to learn from, but with the right people in your life you can overcome anything.